Tuesday, November 9, 2010

N.F.F. (New Found Friend) has now a new meaning...

We met at a birthday party. At first, she reminded me of an old someone (let's just leave the term at that!). We both caught each others' attention by using our magic charm - humiliating ourselves just to make the people laugh. For a couple of hours, we had our chance to be the life of the party.

After a few e-mails of silly willies, a chat until dawn and, an endless talk over cup of tea... I found myself absorbing all these intense emotions that have been longing to come out. It seems like her entire being flashed on my face. Later did I know that the silence I speak gives her so much comfort, that it actually brought her feelings back. She was alive once again.

But these feelings of hers were of the past, and it has been decided that it should never came back. I somehow served as her “flashback of the feelings – machine”. It’s just that it feels good to reminisce that once in her life, she was able experience those moments.

All along I though I was just the only one who was giving in this New Found Friendship. As what she always says, I thought it’s a one way street. But today, as I start writing again, I realized that I was gaining something big from her too… that it isn’t a one way street. I was inspired by her story. She inspired me so much, that I came to realize that it is the time for me to take this big step that will surely make or break every important relationship with the people I value the most.

I brought her ‘once had feelings’ back. And she brought me the feeling of “its time”, which is absolutely huge and new for me.
I’m glad we found these new feelings.

We are indeed an NFF – a New Found Feeling.

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