Friday, April 24, 2009
Lonely but not alone.
I am, for quite sometime now. No matter how many friends and parties, surrounds me… no matter how my family and I keep in touch…
Drowning myself with work, goals, superficial happiness has been a very good and effective façade to protect myself. I got hurt (bigtime!) and I am sure I am not ready to through with it again.
But at the end of the day, the feeling of “something is missing” is still there and it keeps on growing. Many are willing to commit, I just don’t want to for so many reasons. Until someone has told me, “bakit kasi para sayo, lahat kailangan may dahilan? Hindi naman lahat merong dahilan.” (why do you always look for reasons, when not everything has).
Reality has slapped me once again, and then I realized, feeling lonely when not alone….is a choice.
DISCLAIMER: needed to translate in english for my dear friend Shireen!
Drowning myself with work, goals, superficial happiness has been a very good and effective façade to protect myself. I got hurt (bigtime!) and I am sure I am not ready to through with it again.
But at the end of the day, the feeling of “something is missing” is still there and it keeps on growing. Many are willing to commit, I just don’t want to for so many reasons. Until someone has told me, “bakit kasi para sayo, lahat kailangan may dahilan? Hindi naman lahat merong dahilan.” (why do you always look for reasons, when not everything has).
Reality has slapped me once again, and then I realized, feeling lonely when not alone….is a choice.
DISCLAIMER: needed to translate in english for my dear friend Shireen!
Jacks - Love & Other Disasters...
Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Maybe love isn't something that happens to you. Maybe it's something you have to choose.
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