loosing...

feels like im loosing my best friend, my soulmate, the love of my life and possible future happines...

all at the same time...

80-20

There could never be a perfect relationship.

A very good friend once told me about this 80-20% . There will always be this 20% characteristic from your partner that you really cannot stand – for them having this, or not having this. And then there’s this 80% that made you fall for them…
With the 20% , its either you get it from somebody else, something else or just bear with it.

If it is as simple as a habit that can be changed, or improved or if it is something really tolerable then you could be a one happy couple.
But if it is something that defines your whole being, which will eventually, dictate your future and the future of your relationship…. A lot of thinking should be made….

Is the 20% so worth it for you to give up that 80% you already have?

which is it?

People commit themselves into a relationship to discipline themselves and not be carried away nor indulge in the cheap thrills. But why do they still find themselves amused by somebody else aside from their partner? Is it because they are always not contented and wanted more. Is it because they are sick of an incurable disease of infidelity. Or is it just simply because they aren’t really meant for each other?

N.F.F. (New Found Friend) has now a new meaning...

We met at a birthday party. At first, she reminded me of an old someone (let's just leave the term at that!). We both caught each others' attention by using our magic charm - humiliating ourselves just to make the people laugh. For a couple of hours, we had our chance to be the life of the party.

After a few e-mails of silly willies, a chat until dawn and, an endless talk over cup of tea... I found myself absorbing all these intense emotions that have been longing to come out. It seems like her entire being flashed on my face. Later did I know that the silence I speak gives her so much comfort, that it actually brought her feelings back. She was alive once again.

But these feelings of hers were of the past, and it has been decided that it should never came back. I somehow served as her “flashback of the feelings – machine”. It’s just that it feels good to reminisce that once in her life, she was able experience those moments.

All along I though I was just the only one who was giving in this New Found Friendship. As what she always says, I thought it’s a one way street. But today, as I start writing again, I realized that I was gaining something big from her too… that it isn’t a one way street. I was inspired by her story. She inspired me so much, that I came to realize that it is the time for me to take this big step that will surely make or break every important relationship with the people I value the most.

I brought her ‘once had feelings’ back. And she brought me the feeling of “its time”, which is absolutely huge and new for me.
I’m glad we found these new feelings.

We are indeed an NFF – a New Found Feeling.