Define H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

having someone who can dig you... into your soul.

Lonely but not alone.

I am, for quite sometime now. No matter how many friends and parties, surrounds me… no matter how my family and I keep in touch…

Drowning myself with work, goals, superficial happiness has been a very good and effective façade to protect myself. I got hurt (bigtime!) and I am sure I am not ready to through with it again.

But at the end of the day, the feeling of “something is missing” is still there and it keeps on growing. Many are willing to commit, I just don’t want to for so many reasons. Until someone has told me, “bakit kasi para sayo, lahat kailangan may dahilan? Hindi naman lahat merong dahilan.” (why do you always look for reasons, when not everything has).

Reality has slapped me once again, and then I realized, feeling lonely when not alone….is a choice.

DISCLAIMER: needed to translate in english for my dear friend Shireen!

Jacks - Love & Other Disasters...

Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Maybe love isn't something that happens to you. Maybe it's something you have to choose.

suddenly... i think i am..

i've been smoking and drinking lately... more than i used to be...

is this it? the one that they've been telling us about that it is harder the second time?

after 14 months of being away from my comfort zone, being independent and domesticated, being a foreigner...

suddenly... i think i am...

homesick.

RISK...

"Bakit tayo takot lumundag sa walang kasiguraduhan? Papaano natin malalaman kung hindi tayo tatapak sa dilim?" - Caregiver 2008

This made me thinking... oo nga naman. Life is all about taking risks anyway.

Balik PINAS Bucket List...

Kumain sa:

1. Jollibee - Chicken Joy, Gravy, Jolly Hotdog, Regular Yum with cheese
   
2. KFC - GRAVY
   
3. Behrouz - Ox BRAIN
4. Super Bowl
5. Chowking - Beef siomai
6. Estrel's
7. ISAW
8. TAHO
9. KWEK KWEK sa Grace
10. Odd Balls sa Grand Central
11. Lots a Pizza
    
12. Ice scramble

Meet with:

1. Solar friends
2. College friends
3. High School Chums
4. Special People
5. Other friends

Pumunta sa:

1. Divi
2. Greenhills

Magpakalasing
Magpaka Saya
Mamili (kung may pera pa)

SUPER GUEST

The moment that the plane landed at NAIA, i had a relief. Not only from the trip and 21 days away from work but also from the strangers (kabayan or not) who keeps on bugging you for your number, name, etc. Whether their intention is for being less, more or just a friend is still sometimes irritating. i though it was over. but i was wrong. on my 2nd week here, dayday and i had late lunch at Big Buddah in Greenbelt 3 while waiting for our college friends and our 2 angels (http://mgalarawanigem.multiply.com/photos/album/40), a waiter came up to me in the middle of my meal to ask if they can have their picture taken with me so they can have it posted in their "Super Guest" board outside the resto. What's so super in me? hahaha!!! maybe because we ordered more than they expected to think that we are just 2 petite ladies (with a very big appetite!) hehehe!!! It is still quite an experience though, i just hope that, that would increase their sales! hehehe!!!