Now I Know...

The following were said and asked to me but I wasn't able to understand what those really meant nor give a convincing answer at that moment.

• when u grow up, u will be able to do all the things that u want to but of course it will entail a lot of responsibilities. - mom
• meron ka ngang kaibigan at pamilya, pero iba pa din kapag sa special somoene mo nanggagaling ang love, care, attention etc. - dez
• when will you say enough is enough? - apol
• martyr ka ba? - jean
• i know how great your love is. its because despite of all the pains that i have caused you, you dont hurt me back... even if you know you can... - joyce
  

.... Now i know.... thanks to all of you...

2 Most Stupid Questions... Ever...

1. tol... anu pakiramdam ng maputi (duh?! dko pa naramdaman ang maging maitim; unat sa kulot pwede pa!)
2. may kamot ka ba? (tanong mula sa ka blind date ng kaibigan ko)

Pagmamahal nga yan Kung...

kung sa likod ng lahat ng pasakit na nakukuha mo ay ndi ka nananakit...


...kahit alam mong kaya mo...

Lalim

Sumusulat ako sa pag asang may makakarinig ng aking tinig.
ng aking panaghoy. ng aking pag susumamo.



Sumusulat ako sa pag asang may isang nilalang na makababatid sa boses ng aking kaluluwa.



Kaluluwang lumuluha sa lahat ng pasakit ng pakabigo, ng mga tanong na hindi sinasagot, ng pagtataksil.



Malalim na ang sugat na kahit kailan ay hindi naman nag hilom. Bagkus ay unti unti pang lumalalim.



Hindi ko mahugot sa sobrang lalim.



Hindi ko masimulan.



... ang lalim...

Para sa Akin ang Tunay na Macho ay

1. umiiyak, at ndi ito ikinahihiya.
2. inaamin ang tunay na nararamdaman, kasiyahan, kalungkutan, pagkabigo, pagkabalisa.
3. nag iinarte sa tamang lugar at sa tamang panahon.
4. nagtatanong.
5. nagsasalita.
6. may paninidigan.
7. may pangarap.


at higit sa lahat.....

hindi ginagawang dahilan ang kanyang kasarian para:

1. masunod ang gusto. (sa lahat ng bagay)
2. ma justify ang isang cliche.


sa maiklng salita hindi nagsasabing ng:

1. "okay lang yun! lalaki naman ako e!"
2. "e kasi lalaki ako!"
3. " hindi ako ang dapat na gumagawa nyan kasi lalaki ako!"
4. "lalaki ako! lalaki ako! lalaki ako! lalaki ako!!!"

Self Realization of a Woman

It was a Saturday morning a day of rest from a long week day of stress. I jumped out of my bed with a dvd of 50 first dates at hand. Since I haven't seen the movie yet, and I just wanted to chill, why not give the film a try? I have been a mushy film hater. I don't know, I just find it sooooo pathetic. Well except for those VERY FEW ONES… anyways, as the track keeps on playing and playing I just realized that there were tears running through my cheeks. I have always been so unaffected with films of that genre that is why I was so surprised that I was moved and touched by the film. Well to those who haven't seen the movie yet, it is about falling in love with a person who forgets all that has happened that day the moment she woke up the next day because of a serious accident.



The movie ended and I am still puzzled WHY?! What is happening to me? I just have this feeling that I couldn't understand nor express, that I couldn't help but cry. I walked up the stairs and entered my room. As I closed the door I was totally succumbed by this feeling that I bursted into tears…



While I was crying my heart out for about a minute or so, it came to me that to love and be loved is the most wonderful feeling one could ever feel. It would be wonderful to have someone in your life who would make you fall in love with him each and every day of your life. I remembered a friend saying… 'sana mahanap na tayo nung someone na talagang magmamahal sa atin ng tunay". . . yes, I agree, don't look for love, love will find you…



I cried definitely NOT because I am single. But because of the realization that there will come a point in your life that you would need someone, someone who could fill your emptiness. There will always be a soft spot in you no matter how strong you are. Even if you are a woman with balls!





And I think I am beginning to reach that point…



I am not looking for one… He will find me...



It is indeed tough to stay single in this world where everybody expects you to be with somebody. But staying single is not about having no choice, rather it is a result of making INTELLIGENT CHOICES Wink

Ay.. Gagu Ka?

sa wakas. . .
nagkaroon din ako ng pagkaktaon na maisulat ang lahat ng bagay na nagsusuntukan sa aking isip. . .
pati ang mga damdaming kumukurot sa aking puso. . .

mabigat ang dinadala ko.

mabigat ang mga tanong.

hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit pero lapitin ako ng mga taong "islaw palitaw" - lulubog lilitaw.

bigla biglang susulpot.

at

bigla biglang maglalaho.

parang ginagago ka.

diba nakakagago?

ang galing magsalita...

kasi dun lang sila magaling...

mga taong walang paninidigan

mga duwag

mga walang kwenta.

pwede ba kung magpaparamdam ka tapos mawawala ka din lang e wag ka na lang magparamdam.

kahit kailan...

kunwari patay ka na...

ganun din naman un diba?

tama na. . .

masyado mo na ako ginagago.

pero kung gaguhan ang gusto e sabihin mo para naman masabayan kita diba?

gago!

................................................

mabuti na lang at mayroon pa din mga totoong tao...

di bale na ang kaunti basta totoo.

salamat sa inyo, kilala nyo ang mga sarili ninyo.